Alright so this will turn into a rant/blog (just a heads up), cuz I’m really fed up.
I Move to Mississauga, Ontario about 5 months ago and till now I don’t have a single fucking friend.. and its not cuz I have issues or problems or I’m a weirdo, not a good friend, not fun, don’t wanna go out, a loner or any of the shit that might cross anyone’s head that will read this, no its non of that.. Its simply because its fucking hard for people to let anyone in their lives! I’m tired and exhausted and also very frustrated of putting myself out there just so I’d have someone to hang out with at least once a fucking week and do ANYTHING fun! Everyone who isn’t even busy is so shut and even if they make plans with you they end up bailing out last minute using whatever excuse comes to mind, and TRUST ME this didn’t happen to me just once or twice by one person but by a few by now and several times.. even if I let them plan and pick a date and time and place they end up making up some shit to bail out..
I currently don’t study but I’m starting in university next year and thou right now I’m working in an all girls apparel store and all the girls in there that work are around my age, non of them and I do mean NON have asked me to hang out or offered any sort of help or even just given me their email or number to say “Hey well you’re new to this city so if you need any help with anything let me know” even thou they know I’m very new to this place. Thou I don’t usually mix around people from work outside but I wouldn’t really mind!
My point is that if you feel so alone and you’re trying not to be really fucking hard and things seem to go all wrong for a while but you still keep on going with a smile on your face and a big heart that refuses to just give up where do you turn to when you just don’t wanna be alone anymore? when you just need someone by your side? Not necessarily someone that would listen to you or what not but just someone there as a friend because I sure could use a friendly face.